stealing hearts as a pasttime

subtract my age from the mileage on my beating heart,
to recount the years of ache,
spent on you.
thinking about you
makes me feel quite blue,
and the sunset couldn't come quicker at all.
detours ahead,
turn left,
get sunk in a pothole,
get left for dead.

where do i go but here

I feel such need to be so connected,
but damn I feel helpless and so unrelentless

I wish I could fight for your love and affection,
but there's nothing here for you to want or for you to connect with,

I'm sad and alone,
but safe in my home,
a hole in the ground is where I want to go

so please o please tell me
you're offended,
because nothing I see makes me see just how restless
I make you and make you,
please try to understand,
but everything I say makes you feel stuck in quicksand-

there's darkness and faces
so mean and disgusted,
by everything i say and think,
I'm just so helpless,
it's sad to think that I was once not so helpless,
but caught up in thoughts of suicide has made me careless and restless

there's one place i want to go
and that place is home,

the home where i know i belong,
where that is i do not know,
but please point your finger,
so you can be done with me,

because nothing is standing,
except you so close to me...

i love you, i love you,
i miss you all the same,
i don't care what i think,
as long as you're still sane.
there's lower-case letters,
and a cease and desist,
but my heart is aching,
no joy to resist.

im sorry.

you're never going to get my love

because you don't want me.

I'm simple.

you're so blue.

the grass beneath my feet gives me security.

the years ahead of you give you worry.

and when I'm sad, I'm happy.

I've never seen you happy, because I'm always sad.

its a strange love that we have,

but one sided love shouldn't count at all.

ill buy you flowers until you realize who you are.

outrageous.
not so courageous.
contagious, your laugh.
and obnoxious,
your nagging.

but together,
beautiful.

so get your shit together,
and be complete.