Composting too many years of your life

Nothing good grows from the soil of your knowledge,
No product comes from the toil of your labour.

Undying,
Unending,
Unwanting of redemption.

Its better this way.

End

I sleep all day,
Just waiting for this day to end.

I hang my neck
Up in this line.

Stand up straight,
Pretend and put on this smile.

Smoke this cigarette,
Just one more time.

Kick the barrel
That you're standing on,
Tighten the rope
Until you're dead.

Take one deep breath,
Breathe one last time.

Live without love

Life without love
Is like
A bed without sleep,
Sheets unmoved.

It's like
Bulbs without power,
No light in the room,
Nobody can see your beautiful smile.

It's like
Cars without gas,
So much potential
But unable to reach its destination.

And when I avoid my excuses
By claiming that I didn't see anyone
To love,
I realized that I had fallen out of love
With myself.

See here, can you hear?

Resting just too far away for me to find you-
There's no way for me to prove that it
Wasn't me,
Isn't.

Hidden but still there,
You didn't vanish here like
You did from my life.
You are a shadow of my regret,
Hidden but still there.

Live and die, we're really just the same

Do you care about tea leaves for the flavour or are
You too stuck up with insignificant details?

Wasn't that our problem,
I wanted to tempt you with more
But you never gave me a chance to prove it-

Whatever way we go,
Ill remember how you drove me insane;
Maybe I miss it.

Because when we're together,
These are images of my own creation.
Once more into the war,
This time
Will it be beneath us?

You're more than I'd imagined would come in between.
and in truth,
Reality,
By chance,
I'm swimming.

You know the weight.
But you pushed me into the deep end.
Thanks for getting rid of the sand between my toes.

Because ill find solitude in my lungs,
Filled with the smoke
Of these water pipes and from
The ends of these burnt out cigarette butts.

One nerve remains,
The one that sets this fuse in motion,
The one that stops you from haunting me.
What do I need to say?

Not to get rid of you...
... but to forget you.

Sometimes I wait for the rain

Because they can hide the tears I cry,
So sick of trying.

I shout out
"I love you",
Just to hear what it would sound like.

And I fall.
Because who'll be there to pick me
Up?