Life is a fixed contest

Tryin to show up the best,
The worst,
And everything else in between.
... to make yourself feel better about being dead last to the party.
Blame no one but yourself,
You don't want to.
But everyone else does behind your back,
Why should you be left in the dark?
Scratch my back,
I'll scratch yours...
Except you're jumping into lava to help me,
Let's leave like a car out of gas;
It's impossible for you to win.
I miss the taste of coffee,
The taste of
A simple victory.

What are you doing? Crossing the sound device

Passing the noise onto my bleeding eyes,
Leaning closer towards the open door.

So loud,
So unspoken,
The thoughts in your head.

Broken glass,
Cherry on top,
Stand and feel the cold sink in.

You are way too much,
I need a moment.

Getting you deep, living in a dream

Meeting a friend,
Seeing my parents as adults, real people.

Trying things I never thought I'd try,
Holding power...
... so much that they wanted me to kill someone.

I cracked.
I ran.
I climbed things,
Gunshots trailing behind me.

Crying,
Knowing how this would end...
I climbed to the top.

And I jumped.
In the three minutes that I fell,
Do you know what song I sung in my head?
A happy one.

Do you remember this, and unknown throwback?

To an untitled problem,
For an untitled guest?

Because your house is empty now,
Cold,
Barren.

Is the person who sits there,
really you?

Or is this just another untitled...
...Mess?

A night of guns and violence

With something worth watching,
What's your reaction?

Just like you,
Just like me,

For how long?

How long must I wait,
Knowing something's wrong?

Our concrete hearts are beating,
Trying to make something broken come alive;

I'm here trying to rescue you.

Turn my head with talk of summertime

Sick of hearing you threaten to leave me
now and always,

promise me that all my dreams will come true;
That's all I've ever asked of you.

Too much,
I know,
but where can I hide?
If not in unreliable promises,
then gosh,
let my fears be far behind me,
since all I wanted was for you to be beside me,
To hold me and to hide me.

To share one love,
one lifetime,
saying you'll need me,
Wondering if we ever got payed,
to stay with the other.

Here we are, making excuses again

Is the volume high enough on this?
Can you hear me?

Or am I just echoes in the wind,
Again,
Lost to ears who do not care to listen.

In this chamber of echoes,
The air is damp,
Soft.
Outside, where the wind howls,
Here, it is silent.

Resting,
Finding peace.

I'm really only upset,
That I didn't finish cleaning the mess I made.