I took it for granted

Mistakes I've made,
I never learned from.
I got mad.

And yet you were there for me,
why didn't I say "I'm sorry"?
Was I selfish?
I don't think so, for I still love you.
Maybe I just fell too far from the truth,
landing in a hole that I've dug for myself my hole life.

Overnight,
I realized.
Throughout the day,
I was taught my none other than yourself.
And you didn't have to say a thing.

It's a beautiful thing,
your voice.
It's a horrible truth,
your sheltered life.
And I take what I have for granted.

So laugh with me,
at all the stupid things.
Stand with me,
as we watch it all burn.
And maybe-
Maybe then,
We can grow as people as we understand that nothing else matters.

Nothing but the things that will never last.

Writing to a mask called sober regret

Empty plates fill our stomaches,
The consequences are everywhere.

Trying to set things right,
We trip in the shadow of a beast,
While standing on the shoulders of giants.

What is this mystery,
What is it that you think of me?

Let's enjoy what little time we have left,
Give me your hand and ill give you mine.
Ignore the cuts;
Scars dont disappear over time.

Turning the tides in a sea which doesn't fight back

Groups of houses,
Row on row,
Staring back at you, didnt you know?
The house you grew up in,
At the lower income part of town;
It still loves you every day
For hours upon hours,
For houses don't move.
But people do.
Love seen not felt is not worth giving;
Hurting the ones who matter most.
Me.

Tonight is a good night.

The stars are shining bright,
And the moon stands guard like overwatch.

I see clearly now.
My thoughts stand before me row in row,
And I realize now that not a thing in the world can bother me.

I am free.
The branches watch as I shudder under them,
They give me hope and I see the faded lines of grey that mark their baggy eyes.
The knots they have untangle mine,
I am no longer nervous.
This is the air I breathe, they act through me.
I am the messenger of a new age,
Tomorrow will be beautiful.

And as we ride the sun over the hills that watch our backs,
We realize that there is a sudden dawn,
A new horizon,
A brand new canvas for our beautiful portraits.

So why do you stand at the edge of darkness,
When you're standing so close to fire, that you feel it's warmth burning your skin-
I feel misery, watching,
I only feel like I can see when I have closed my eyes.
This is the truth and you know it,
But you won't believe it.

Dance with me.
Frolic in what little daylight we have left to spend,
Because the good things come when we least expect them.

Enjoy life, Enjoy it with me, Enjoy the simplicity of it all.
Before we forget it.

We stood at the edge of gladness and well being.

And yet we chose to jump to the bottom.


Did it hurt?
Not that it matters.
But it did.


Left to drown in tears of sorrow,
High strung and mighty at the school's great big talent show.
And even number of unfair pairings.


You climbed up to the top,
I had just gotten down to the bottom.

Pick my heavy heart off of the Floor-

I'm alone in a crowded room,
Have you ever seen nothing true,
left wondering whether this is how you're supposed to feel in this gloom,
or whether trouble is still going to brew?


I'm here with you,
but I feel stuck still in the corner,
detract and unafraid of what I knew,
glad that I was a stoner.


Cause now I could pretend you didn't exist, that I couldn't see,
Since you were never cool enough to just let me be.
I had to change to please you... This is why you and me
Never would really work since you only saw your way, my way was something you just couldn't see.

Moments spent in Heaven

Can't prepare us for what's next,
You don't see that I'm not ready for this;
Set me free and send me
far away from everything hurtful.
Tell me to go away from You.

We didn't fall down straight,
Did you know that?
Or was it a flight which never left the ground,
Your eyes closed to see the colours of my fear surrounding you-
This fuels the emptiness of your life. It's sadistic.
It's gross.
You're a fucking mess.

Then I stop.
.... and listen.
To myself,
To everyone around me.
This is a misery,
bound in chains labelled by distress and indescribable euphoria,
we love to see you cry.
But I just wish you loved me.

And so,
These wrists are slit like the scars that reside deeper than skin,
Tossing and turning like the waves of my mediocre existence,
Now you see me,
Now you don't.

Sucked away, drained,
This is what you deserve.
Can you ask for any less?
Sure you can. And you do.
"Change, Please."

To those who enjoy the draining moments of happiness

We believe in something greater than a mere happiness,
we want something we can hold onto.


I wish the moments held onto the people we loved lasted forever,
I wish we didn't have to say goodbye,
I wish people weren't disposable like lines of film.


You stood for something greater,
You stood at the edge of darkness and provided me with light.


Do you understand now,
Do you see what I see?

Or are you stuck,
Or is it simply out of reach-


Yes.
Yes.
Yes.


Repeating lines to gain deeper acceptance of the truth,
Repeating the truth, do you see now how I see things?


This is how it is.
This is how I wish it could be.
This is how I wish it could be forever.


I wish you knew I loved you.
I wish this were truth.


Instead, I fall back upon nothing but lies,
I fall down on a tower which was built upon the grounds of false things and untrue misery,
I'm left to wallow in the despair of my untruths.
I stand.
I fall.
I bring myself back up.
And you are there.
Leave me alone,
Please.

The sound of an insatiable hunger

Did you hear my plea?
It sounded something like an undesirable thing,
the kind of idea that gets buried or washed away under the weight of enormous doubt;
these are the sparks that get drowned out by the hands of  those who don't want us to be extraordinary.

I wish you could have heard me then,
all the things that I'd said, and meant,
The kind of dream that you don't really remember,
because it's too good to be true.

So life, lift me up.
Take me by my feet and drag me to where I belong,
because you know better than I do where that is.
Or are you just another bully on the playground,
who thinks they know what's best for everyone but themselves?

Theres nothing like a funeral to make you alive.

I know something you dont know some things that you wont.

Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful .