To those who enjoy the draining moments of happiness

We believe in something greater than a mere happiness,
we want something we can hold onto.


I wish the moments held onto the people we loved lasted forever,
I wish we didn't have to say goodbye,
I wish people weren't disposable like lines of film.


You stood for something greater,
You stood at the edge of darkness and provided me with light.


Do you understand now,
Do you see what I see?

Or are you stuck,
Or is it simply out of reach-


Yes.
Yes.
Yes.


Repeating lines to gain deeper acceptance of the truth,
Repeating the truth, do you see now how I see things?


This is how it is.
This is how I wish it could be.
This is how I wish it could be forever.


I wish you knew I loved you.
I wish this were truth.


Instead, I fall back upon nothing but lies,
I fall down on a tower which was built upon the grounds of false things and untrue misery,
I'm left to wallow in the despair of my untruths.
I stand.
I fall.
I bring myself back up.
And you are there.
Leave me alone,
Please.