Getting you deep, living in a dream

Meeting a friend,
Seeing my parents as adults, real people.

Trying things I never thought I'd try,
Holding power...
... so much that they wanted me to kill someone.

I cracked.
I ran.
I climbed things,
Gunshots trailing behind me.

Crying,
Knowing how this would end...
I climbed to the top.

And I jumped.
In the three minutes that I fell,
Do you know what song I sung in my head?
A happy one.

Do you remember this, and unknown throwback?

To an untitled problem,
For an untitled guest?

Because your house is empty now,
Cold,
Barren.

Is the person who sits there,
really you?

Or is this just another untitled...
...Mess?

A night of guns and violence

With something worth watching,
What's your reaction?

Just like you,
Just like me,

For how long?

How long must I wait,
Knowing something's wrong?

Our concrete hearts are beating,
Trying to make something broken come alive;

I'm here trying to rescue you.

Turn my head with talk of summertime

Sick of hearing you threaten to leave me
now and always,

promise me that all my dreams will come true;
That's all I've ever asked of you.

Too much,
I know,
but where can I hide?
If not in unreliable promises,
then gosh,
let my fears be far behind me,
since all I wanted was for you to be beside me,
To hold me and to hide me.

To share one love,
one lifetime,
saying you'll need me,
Wondering if we ever got payed,
to stay with the other.

Here we are, making excuses again

Is the volume high enough on this?
Can you hear me?

Or am I just echoes in the wind,
Again,
Lost to ears who do not care to listen.

In this chamber of echoes,
The air is damp,
Soft.
Outside, where the wind howls,
Here, it is silent.

Resting,
Finding peace.

I'm really only upset,
That I didn't finish cleaning the mess I made.

To make it to heaven I'd have to go through hell

I can't escape the devil,
been holding this stress for too long.

stopped learning what I should have when I was eight,
im not making shit up,
this is my real life so I can speak this shit.
you don't know how close to the top I am,
been ready for so long to fall back down.

So the engraving went like this;

Don't forget me, Please.
Don't forget I existed.

What's gone now,
Is temporary,
in the light of mere memory,
I am eternal.

I taught you,
That stays with you forever.
I fed you,
And now you have learned to feed others.
I held your hand,
And now you must show the way for your brothers, and sisters.

So I leave you this watch,
To make sure you're always on time,
For any appointment except death.

Read it,
Understand it.

"Remember me, Love, Mom."

Complimenting me, Not really.

Looking at the places we went wrong,
You're stuck.









Look at me,
I don't want to work with you,
I don't want to speak to you,
I don't want to stand here and take this.
Because relationships are give and take.
And I have nothing left to give you.

These spaces,
holes in memory,
are empty.
Cold.
I can't find the truth.
Is this hide and seek?
Because I'm not really trying to find answers,
I'm just waiting until it's over.

I know that I'm not all you wish I could be, but conditions don't exist in real love.

Whether that means this is not love,
Or whether that means you don't love me,
I don't know.
Or maybe this is love and we just have to see past what you don't like about me.

Party,
Drink,
Forget.

I wish You knew,
That to me,
This is love.

That I'm working for you,
That I'm dying to be with you,
That these sleepless nights are spent thinking of you.

I'm no knight,
But dear,
I would search the world,
every city,
Looking for you if you ran away because of this.

Looking down, Walking fast, No regrets with things undone

We're walking so fast,

Sometimes we forget to look to see where we need to turn.

Is this your house?

Is this your life?

Are you awake,

Or have you closed your eyes?

Here's a cake,

Take a bite,

but now you've forgotten to close your eyes.

The taste will fly by,

Leaving nothing behind,

But the stale crumbs and thoughts of suicide.

I hate this,

Because you're so tough,

Not you, cake,

But me,

Love.