No man better articulates

Is this love?

Or are we struggling to get away from another,

And did I tell you I loved you at the most inopportune moment-

I never had a choice,

You needed to know or else I'd drown.

I don't hate you,

Why do you act like so?

How do I get up after falling so low,

Do you have answers for the questions that I have?

I've never met you.

At least not this you,

Since you don't intend on saving me.

You don't smile anymore, you've forgotten how.

I've never been lured by that sad look

That people give you when they want to be loved by you.

You sit there waiting for me to catch you,

Forever in free fall,

When did I promise that I'd be there no matter what?

I always mention that you can't quote me on anything.

My spirits are strong,

Knowing that something will lead me home,

Away from this place of loneliness,

This place of disgrace.

All the greed, all the lust

It's seeping in,
I can't keep it out,
I'm trying to hold this door closed,
Trying to keep my eyes barred,
Afraid to turn my back to the fear,
Letting the tears on my face hide my shame,

I am a part of this.
Whether I like it or not.

Smell the roses, the blood that stains them

This pain is all I've ever known,
Growing up in the shadow of doubt has left me broken and hopeless,
Fear taking form in my feelings,
Sticking to my brain and beating me at all the games I play,
I'm scared, running.

But as I run out of breath,
I try to find comfort in what I know,
And overcome by my blood-stained past I'm brittle, weak,
Terrified of what everyone will think,
I'm hardly a scholar of my profession,
Really just trying to keep walking,
I say goodbye to my love,
This is the end.

My sight's on love

With one big sigh everything is let go,
In one wave I let you know,
That I've seen you right through you,
And I can't hide anymore.

Knowing you has brought me down,
The truth is weighing on my chest heavilly,
Making me want to throw it all down.
And maybe one day I will reach the conclusion...

Someday.

Don't leave me

Cowardice hid us in the corner,
Shame angered us when you tried to help.

Who will be the light,
When daylight doesn't come?

Tomorrow is guaranteed,
Yet I feel unsure of what will happen to me,
Unable to tell you for sure,
If I want to sleep tonight,
And wake up tomorrow,
Instead if falling asleep for good.

The cup is half full

I've waited so long to come home to you
To create an illusion of suspense
Or rather, disbelief.

Numbers aren't adding up in the books though,
Prayers have gone missing
Dreams seem to be becoming more and more real.

If this is a real place,
It's just another place I dont belong
Placing bets at an empty table.

Love is wanting to stay the night

So desperate I would crawl,
Crimes commited out of lust for the things I wanted.

Looking through filtered lenses,
Blind to everyone following me.

Out of breath from running,
Only really wanting to stay.

Webs of lies and personalities

I feel cornered from all the lies I've told
No greater satisfaction than exposing the truth

Where did I lose my footing
Cause now I'm falling too fast for comfort

It feels wrong to tell you that I'm a man
Since the simplest truths are unbelievable to you

At least I can sleep at night knowing
What I know does with me

Death is a solution
And I haven't touched enough people to be missed