Something I never understood

Even when I asked for help,
I was alone.

And when I was there,
forever in the dark,
You know who held the light?
You.

Because I had the candle,
you had the spark.

&

After the earthquake,
You didn't come back.
To our broken home, to my broken heart.
And I'm sitting here wondering where you went,




Completely in the Dark.

The few still standing

Upsetting,
Depressing,
Gradually falling,
until finally

Failing.

And if failing is hitting the ground, no matter how fucking hard you hit it,
then I would take that over a broken heart any day.

Because after the tears have been wiped away,
There's no one to help pick up the pieces of your broken heart.

Only you.

To this day

There's been a misunderstanding,

because I don't know if he's going to die.

Growing up,

believing nobody would ever love us,

knowing the darkness was coming.

In a few days,

you will know.

That they might be wrong.

Coming in a few days,

it would come.

And if you weren't ready,

I'd say you didn't make it.

But not me.

Because I'd die either way,

no matter what you'd say,

no misunderstanding,

no misconceptions,

only clarity.

So go, just go,

go on without me.

Because I won't have you dying for me,

And my heart knows that you won't be standing here waiting for me,

You don't like being seen here,

You can't be seen standing beside me.